Precious relations...

Nothing in life is permanent...expect for change...it could be for the better, or the worse...but it does leave a lasting impression...on our hearts, on our minds and in some cases even our souls!!! 


The sapling that you plant water and nurture  for so many years..having protected it from all external exegenices..and having given the best of both worlds...one fine day...you hand it over to another person...hoping that he will take care of it...just the way you did...cause the sapling, which is now a lively tree...is none other than your child....


You take the next step...the mind is cluttered with a million thoughts...what would be my soul mate like? will i live the life of love i always dreamed of...will he hold my hand and be besides me...against all odds...will i be able to be a good soul mate...and so on and so forth...


Then there are apprehensions...where all negative things come to one's mind...and we think of the worst of our nightmares coming true....where we think...what if i am a misfit and unable to adjust...what if he has painted a rosy picture of his life...completely different from mine!!


Thoughts that battle day in day out...the positivity wins over the negative and then you feel the thing...we all long to feel..wanted and loved...its the time you feel all gooey and mushy from inside...when you literally know what it is to go weak in the knees when you see someone...how your entire face flushes with colour when the special somone...gives the look that you know says a million things...while to the world..it is only silence...


You can't sleep...you loose your appetite...when you are with them..time flies and when you are away...you miss them so much...your heart does a million flips a minute and you feel that the pain could almost kill you....you know there is something changing in your life...inside you...you know it...but you cant explain it to anyone....


Day in day out...you are in a trance...you see stuff but cant relate to it...its all a tizzy for you...you don't know whats hit you...the world is a beautiful place and everything seems nice...the birds...the breeze...they all seem to fresh and rejuvinating....


No one else but you seem to notice the difference in the way the world has become...you can't do without them...they are always in your mind...when you are with them...you eyes light up...you want to stand on a mountain and scream your gut out...the joys is overflowing...you want to share your happiness with the world...the feeling of ecstasy comes to you without anything to lift your spirits...and lingers on and on...


It could be magic...it could be love...whatever it is...it sure makes the world go round...with them as the center of your world...its awesome..its fantabulous..its where words coagulate and words get stuck in your throat cause you are overawed with what's happening around you...you cant tell..but only feel..the change thats coming over  you....it gives you a reason to smile... a reason to believe in him above and moreover a reason to know that you were meant to be together...FOREVER!!!!

Change has come....

Life is truly Pandora's magic box...you never know what is gonna come your way next...and when you are down in the dumps and think it to be the end of the world for you...all your prayers seem to reach God and you get much more than what you could have ever imagined!!!

Its like walking on clouds...have a million butterflies take flight in the center of your tummy...its like being so happy with the way things are that it resonates from within for about a couple of miles around you...

Some may call it luck...others call it karma...it is linked to destiny in some way or the other...we may not agree today,tomorrow or even day after...but then sooner or later nature will conspire in such a way to make you bow on your knees and accept things the way they are...coz there shall be no other logical explanation for the same...

Time and again the circumstances are such that they compel you to believe in the existence of the higher being the controller of this game of life and we are merely the pawns that move as per his desires...and as each petal of life unfurls it brings with it innumerable joys and reasons to celebrate...but as they say...joy comes to those with the keen eye for the finer things of life :)

The repeated mistake...

The smallest of bruises hurt more than the largest of any cuts...know why? coz they don't show and only you can feel the pain...the same is when some one lets you down...only you know how low you feel and the rush of adrenaline when you wanna smash into a buzillion pieces the pretty picture you had of some one in your mind....

So many times you trust is shattered...and you swear never to trust anyone ever again...and yet again we fall prey to these emotions and end up being emotional fools...its a vicious circle...the harder you try to stay away from the matters of the heart...the more you fall prey to them....

Its easy to say that I keep my head above my shoulders but still there is this teeny weeny nerve that goes straight from the heart and touches upon the button that makes all the wrong decisions...and we sit and regret and fret and sweat over wasted emotions but to no avail...we just can't help it can we?

Only saints they say can control their desires...but in today's world with everything luring you to forbidden paths...even that seems a remote possibility...and while we are only mortals...we are bound to make mistakes...over and over...again and again...

Somehow we begin to feel that every time our trust is taken for a ride...we become more careful and such things are a rarity for us...little do we know with every fresh blow we become more susceptible and vulnerable to such like incidents...

Its never ending..till the time you heart pounds...it yearns for something or the others....it may get love...it may get fear but the worst and the most abundantly available and recurring being... the ripping of the thing called the heart through your chest but merciless hands of fate...wringing it so hard...you don't feel anything...but you see the blood ooze out and a sharp pain as though you've been stabbed by a sharp knife by someone you loved and trusted...blindly!!!!